I sit here all alone feeling nothing but depression,
hate, fear, love, all of the above, and some aggression.
How much longer will I be able to suppress them?
I guess I need some help… Anybody have a suggestion?
At first it was just love, then it turned into an obsession,
How could I be so blind? How could I even question,
if she was the one? Now I can’t look at my own reflection.
I messed it all up and there’s no chance of any redemption.
Her love for me is gone, and I can’t create a resurrection.
I’ve kept this all in, like this information was under discretion.
Now I realize that hiding only gave me less protection.
Why is it when I make decisions, I make the wrong selection?
I had you all to myself, then blew it with lies and deception.
Just know that you alone, define the word PERFECTION.
Shady0807 - "The Thoughts of a Gentleman" 
Life is lessons learnt, some painful some not so. Its strange in its way, and never leaves the answers. The key to the future lays hidden in the past, as we grow we learn, and learn from the past, so that we do not make the same mistakes the next time around, at the same time we must also not get stuck in the past, bring the past to the present, tars the present and ruins the future. Through living we learn to live and through suffering we learn to “love”. We all make mistakes, we all do crazy things, we all hurt those we “love” and live to regret, but from our own suffering much greater things can be born.
Comment by Duma Key — September 26, 2008 @ 9:45
Thanks for the feedback. I’ve told alot of other people that my life is really great right now. I’m really new to the whole blogging and posting, so I still have alot of catching up to do. Some of the poems I’ve posted were written in my past, and I chose to post them because they might be able to help someone else going through similar troubles. You seem like you’ve been through alot. I like to use the metaphor of looking into the past like looking in your rear view mirror. You can only see back a few blocks, but you never lose sight of where you are… Keep reading & I’ll keep writing, VICE VERSA
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I like the use of ending words. I think you are going in the right direction on your work.
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